Friday, December 27, 2013

Losing weight after baby - entry #2 (a little less than a year after baby #3)

Along with sharing the good and the bad of being a mother of three and my mommy favorites, I will dedicate this blog as my weight loss blog and hair journey experience.  It seems that I need an outlet to write down ideas and thoughts and although I may not publish all my entries, I will share my journey for the most part because I know that for me, other people's stories really inspire me.

So since I left of last time, no real progress, no real weight lost.  In trying to understand my reasons, I realized that motivation was lacking.  I've done it before, I know what I need to do and yet, I do not do it.  Why?  I am really not sure why but I know I put it off to tomorrow every day.

It's only 40 lbs

Indeed, I need to lose 40 lbs to be healthy and even 45 lbs to be at my goal weight.  It's funny (but not really funny) how this number goes up every so often in my life.  I remember when I only had 25 lbs to lose and how desperate I was back then.  Now, I can only wish that it was 25.  So here is to saying "at least it's not 50 lbs or 100 lbs".

I've been checking out some weight loss blogs and a lot of people start their journey with 100 lbs to lose.  I need to focus on how much needing to lose only 40 lbs is a good thing. It could have been more.

I have a big event coming up

I will be travelling for my cousin's wedding in a short few days (twenty something days)...  I am in a panic.  Being this weight is not great but when you are going to see people you haven't seen in a while, it's worst.  They remember me skinny (or skinnier I should say).  Most people when they see me now-a-days are stunned at how much I've "changed".  Some of them don't even recognize me.  Boy, I must be really ugly or something.  I really don't know how to take it.  It kind of irritates me a little in all truth but I'm the type of person to brush things off my shoulders and not let other people's opinion of me have an effect on me.  I don't know...  Some days, it's really hard to live with this principle.  I always tell myself: "I'll show them sooner or later".

I need a plan

My failure seems to come from the fact that I have not been able to stick to a real diet plan while I am home with the baby.  I put myself and my needs last.  I take care of the baby, my older kids, my husband and then myself.  I need to really re-evaluate.  I think taking the time to carve out a real plan with a step by step to do list of every thing I need to do daily in order to achieve my goal in a timely manner.

So far, my ideas are to make my meal plans and schedule my food intake so that my blood sugar never dips or spikes.  I've noticed that this has been a problem for me.  I will also schedule my workouts ahead of time for a month at a time.

My schedule will not only help me to succeed, it will also help me with my grocery list.  What uselessly happens is that I eat whatever is in the house and when it comes with to shopping for groceries, I am afraid of buying produce because of waste.  I'm hoping that when my new plan works out, I will buy the good food and cook it because I will be following a plan.

Getting started

As I said, I need to be held accountable and that's the reason why I am blogging this weight loss.  Also, after many years of wondering what I did that really helped me this time or that time,  

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